As I wrote 'some thoughts about life' I realized it was too long.. and I thing it's still bit too long. So I splitted it. And now that it's christmas.. or was. This next part is kind of filler. I received some posts about 'some thoughts about life' and there was opinions like ''I read about dont have reason to live, well, in my kind of view, the reason to live, is just that live, learn, learn new things everyday because everyday everyone learn new things and the most part of time they dont know it. then its a reason to live? you mention that the family and the friends. but thats why im sating that, because the problem is that you cant have an other person as reason.'' And I'll just cut the rest because it would go to personal things. Anyway I was bit unclear with that the reason to live thing and some people might have taken it in wrong way. I don't mean it's the reason to live is completely up to person.

It's more like feelings like love and hate. If you love someone it keeps you going.. At least usually. And hate has pretty much same effect. It keeps you going.. Eventhough hate kind of 'destroys' you. Trust me I know. Now after years of hating someone who should be one of the closest person in your life. I'm pretty much just 'shell' of someone I was still few years back.. It's not often when I'm happy about myself. I know someone who is in same situation and I hope that he notices what I mean.. Anyway to answer fully to the comment I posted earlier feelings about others gives you the power to go on even when situation might look hopeless. But now after I've particularised my previous journal entry (not the merry christmas one!).

I can continue to main thing. Which is hate.. I talked about it already in this entry. But it's always good to talk more about it. And other important thing which is forgiveness. forgiveness and hate are related to themselves as everybody should know. Now hate is strong word which I've learnt to not use lightly. Now that I look back and see that I've been spending so much time on hating others, oh well more like other.. And for some reason it's difficult to forgive now that it has been years from the start of the problem (which I'm not going to explain any further.. everyone who needs to know it knows it already.. I'm just using myself as an example.. And I hope others will be more wiser than I was/am). And now that I actually think about it I should have made peace with myself sooner and forgive.. But now I see that I've been hurting myself emotionaly for many years.

But anyway as in 'some thoughts about life' this article is about cause opinions. And I'll be more than happy to discuss about opinions and/or answer to your questions.. And again I realize that I've wrote more than I was going to.. Anyway luck to you all and good night.. Labsters has left the building.(I've always wanted to say that)